Why can't I have a choreographed happiness like "Singing in The Rain"?
Instead of my life drama leaking out like Tenessee William's written Southern bloodstains
I want to recast some of the people I've met in my life, it's obvious my Casting Director's insane
As I've been "Waiting for Godot" for most of my life, and my patience has begun to wane

Sometimes it's "Twilight Zone" strange, but usually just a temple-scratching Alfred Hitchcock mystery
How I can live through every Drama like a "Steel Magnolia" but can't advance my life further than a dark comedy
I keep looking through the Stages of my exsistence, looking for a sappy "Wedding Singer" kind of happy
But my heart's a "Streetcar Named Desire", and my future looks to be filled with a "Rumblefish" kind of destiny

I'm not saying that there haven't been high points, I've been a "Swinger" but only in a PG-13 kind of way
I could never find the coldness in myself to do the "Pimps up, Ho's down" calculating thing to get laid
But, then again, getting laid isn't getting happiness, and I'm not spiritual enough to attain a "State of Grace"
I just want to be happy regardless of my shortcomings like "The Tramp" in his heyday

Obviously I look to movies and theater to find an answer, but off-camera and off-stage, even the rich actors think "Reality Bites"
So, I turn to fantasy on screen, on stage, and online... tenacious as a Resevoir Dog to stay blinded by my imagination's steady burning lights
But, "You've Got Mail" and "Sleepless in Seattle", while being heartwarming and hopeful, definitely didn't get the whole story right
The reality of it is that you have to have a "Braveheart" to achieve a freedom from the "Misery" that loneliness can give you when it's only you late at night

So I try to make my life like a movie or play, but I don't want anymore dark comedies and tragedy
A romance would be nice, something I could learn from like "Harold & Maude" with a loving older lady
And I know that there are enough "Singles" out there to achieve a Cameron Crowe-like bitersweet victory
Not too mushy, but something that makes all the heartache worthwhile, so I can find my own kind of happiness like the big kid in "The Mighty"

-David "Dingo" Bleecher