Sometimes the real me outgrows my public mask entirely
Slipping out of serenity my rage overcomes it completely
My eyes glowing emphatically with the raw emotion slamming within me
Screaming against the wall of happy me I display so copiously
Behind my fake ass smile I see red glaringly, rage growing murderously
"Fuck you!" The explitives stream while my heart beats faster
"Fuck this! Fuck life! Fuck Everything! And fuck you, you bastard!"
But I'm just yelling this shit at myself within myself, Slave to my own Master
But my emotions are like taggers writing epithets on crumbling plaster
While my mind tries to calm my emotions like some feeble peace ambassador
What the fuck am I so pissed about, where did I get this anger at
Why does it shoot through me like driving rednecks with baseball bats?
It's like my public persona is clean streets while my inner sewers team with rabid rats
I just think over and over, it's a damn good thing I don't own a Gat
I need to go home and pound on a wall, and hope I can handle this like that
But this shit grows and grows, it doesn't just fade away
My mouth doesn't move fast enough, to say all the things I have to say
I can't restrain all this rage, it just gets so fucking big every day
I get so pissed off so quickly at stupid shit, even when I know it's stupid shit anyway
Just please, if you see that look in my eyes, stay the fuck away
